Tuesday, January 09, 2007
alright mayb i didn realli hate her tat much lol...jus those guys bah...bt i realli dun understand whenever u r smsin him y cant u tell mi??when i ask u sae i duno de...bt when sumtimes i look then ur reaction too slow even though u try coverin i also saw the name...i dun mind u sms him bt can u jus dun do it secretly lik duno wat...its lik u doin sth bad lik tat...there so rite so big uncle ye...lik i cannot c...nvr mind its nt ur fault...its mine k...4 tryin to b jealous...dun u hav enough boys n nw u tryin to take mine?okok its my fault again k...4 fallin in love with the rong guy...bt wat can i do??love is love...i cant change...I SUX K...okok y am i scoldin myself?becuz i qian ma wat lol...nvr mind...mayb i wun rite anymore posts here...cuz i tink sum uninvited guests r readin too much lol...bt trust mi i dun realli hate her i jus dun lik her attitude lar k...if she could jus change,we might jus becum best friends...lol...bye ppl...lurves him still...
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Friday, November 10, 2006
haiz our princess here jus sprained her leg...so guess wat??obviously all the boys crowdin ard her askin if she alright lor...then brought her to the chinese physician...gd hor??bt the thing is i keep askin myself if it was mi wat would they do??i tink nth bah lol...sorri i laugh at myself...cuz i am jus sum1 useless...then jus nw duno y suddenly bad mood...i felt lik shoutin at ys lor...keep sayin hc cumin back todae ...lik hell i duno he cumin...damm...felt soooo irritated in my life 4 the first time...haiz duno wat got into mi...tink mayb i will b the first to collapse in my sect bah...bt i will go till the end lar...as long as i stil hav tat perseverance there i will lead my sect to the best...even though tats wat i am tinkin bt i realli duno how long i can still take it...haiz...i am a bad sect leader...jus nw plae tat solo also kena laugh by princess..lik she veri gd lik tat ...at least i try lor...nvr felt sooo bad be4...felt lik killin her...hahax...i so bad hor...cant she encourage ppl instead??haiz...she oni wan ppl treat her well bt nvr tink of ppl de...then todae hc cum back...haiz happi bt hell noes...deep deep in my heart its tearin cuz i noe he n princess will b veri close again n theres nth i can do...i was lik tinkin y cant she keep herself to herself??lol...since its clear tat she lik sum1 frm band then cant she b lik nt soooo close to sooo mani other guys..ppl c will tink u nt a gd gal lor...i lookin at him then he lookin at her...since u all soooo scared of her then b her dog lar...sooo ting hua de...jus becuz i dun wan b bad n keep beatin n scoldin n shoutin at u all doesn mean u all can dun giv a damm abt mi...plzz lor...i oni dun wan b soooo bad lor...suddenly i lurve tis song by guang liang...yue ding...sooo nice...haiz how i hope i can hav a yue ding wif him...bt i tink i can wait 1000 yrs bah...haiz...nw i feel lik burstin out into tears haiz...xiang xiang help mi...u r always there 4 mi no matter wat...my best seniors...y cant they b lik xiang xiang...n care abt other ppl feelin more...jus nw i sms him he reply mi once then i tink he reply princess oni liao...he jus forgotten mi jus lik tat...it makes mi realli sad ...realli realli sad...haiz i cant help bt tink gonna c him tml...b more happi...smile more...bt i realli duno how long i can put my smile on 4...it might b 1dae,1mth,a yr,or even less than an hr...haiz...zou yi bu suan yi bu lor...then nw i tink of band camp i realli veri scared...asl nt goin,1 of my best player nt goin n the worst is he playin 1st wif mi...so nw left i 1 person i realli duno if i can manage it anot...then haiz i tink abt farewell party...duno if both my seniors will go sia...i dun wan lik last yr we tokin to wall lik tat...she nvr cum...haiz...then nw they tokin abt tml haiz...he sae will b late then they started quarrelin then sae until princess injured still make her wait...she gal lehx...lik da i nt gal meh-_-i oni nt injured wat...ok i better stp or i realli will burst out into tears...bye every1...
*blood drippin frm my hurt heart...
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Thursday, October 19, 2006
haiz...everytime i ask wana plae bb...she first 1 to sae huh dun wan lar...bt in the end she always seems to b the happiest lar...i wana plae bt sth always happen tat spoil my mood haiz...i was lik haiz...then jus nw we plae then she giv tat attitude i dun realli lik...mayb she didn do it on purpose bt it made sum1 cry lor...idiotic...then she alwaes plae plae plae dun realli care abt ppl de...ya mayb her skill did improve bt tink of others lor...she may b a princess in most of the guys eyes bt to mi she is sum1 hu changes face veri fast...when she hapi then all the guy lik lucky...she unhapi every1 will crowd ard her de...nt lik the unlucky mi...the ball hit mi nobody cares...realli pain 1...u all realli tink i make up of metal ar?damm...fine lor u all gd lor...then jus nw ys they all insists i score 1 ball bt i realli cannot...the ball dun listen to mi...almost wana go in then cum out!!haiz...then she said sth tat make mi nt hapi lor...wat let her throw 1thousand yrs later still haven go in...lik she veri gd lik tat...i admit i nt veri pro lar...cuz when plae match i also rarely take ball...almost always nvr pass mi...i already lik fine nvr mind...i realli veri lan wat...bt if i dun get how am i suppose to improve??then when practice they also rarely pass mi i mus lik get the ball myself...bt as long as she shout the ball automatic goes to her...so is tis world even fair??no lor...so wif little practice they expect mi to get in??yaya rite tyco wat hor...so i tried n tried change place...when the ball roll to her she pick up n sae wat we each take turn c hu go in first...damm stupid lor...she throw how long liao?i throw how long?i tink nt even double of her gettin the ball...ya then abt 3 turns she finally go in...then she sae aiyo i take 3 turn can go in liao...tis time i realli angry liao...bt wat can i do...cont throw lor...cuz she keep sayin sayin sayin ...wat she hav to go liao...then lik y she hav to go all of us hav to go??always i go ye bu jian de ni men yao zhou...i finally noe y...cuz i jus dun hav much position in all ur hearts...jus becuz i am short fat n ugly...tats how u treat mi...the dae i burst is the dae u nvr c the old cheerful mi laughin at u all playin cheerfully wif u all nvr seem depress or angry in front of u all...cuz i will change n becum cold n wif a glum look...then finally get in liao...gd lor...i nearly wana giv up half-way take my baggy n go lor...bt cannot ban tu er fei lol...then take bag wana go liao then roger took up muen basketball then i rmb ya hor nid to return...then i c she n sum of the guys already walkin in front liao so i shout wana go return the ball together?she sae y mus i return?i was lik huh?at least i ask sae together nt lik u go return...i already late liao lor...then she keep sayin i was lik fine...i go liao...i dun care...if my parents weren waitin 4 mi i would take the ball n go return my self...at least i would tink lor nt lik her...cuz i noe even if i fa pi qi...there is nth i can do also cuz they nt realli care abt mi de...they will jus orh angry lor...if is she angry i tell u every1 will go an wei her lor...especially him...fine lor...win lor...nearly cry out again...bt i manage to ren...cannot alwaes b crybaby de!so wats the endin?the person hu insist dun wana plae seems to b the happiest lor...nt lik mi...aniway the last part i said bye then turn n walk cuz i walk different direction which is lik obvious they wun wana go wif mi de...they would rather go wif her de...everytime i go alone out nvr even care abt mi lor...win lor they...then he shouted hou hui wu qi...then jkjk...i was lik i dun care i cont walkin i thot they will lik noe sth is wrong bt nvr mind...blame it all on my f****** life...oops lol...then tml duno lar...mayb watch death note or stay at kelvin hse lor...sian if they keep dun wana go watch i go find my sect or wat go watch liao...dun wana waste my time waitin 4 them...exams also nvr did veri well lor...she keep sayin she nt gd bt i worse then her lor...sae until she the worst lik tat haiz...ok hows my second post?unhapi?finally get to noe da real mi?wat i tinkin abt my besties?dun worry if u r still interested there will still b more posts...i will update whenever sth bad or unhapi happen...so wait lor...
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Saturday, October 14, 2006
to every1 out there...tis is my new blog...as i close dwn the 1 be4 due to sum scammers...tis blog is totally dedicated to all my unhappiness abt ppl...so if u do nt wish to c unhappi things visit my other blogs...thx...
to mii i already tink tat i am useless n even if i ever disappear 1 dae no 1 will b sad n no1 will ever rmb mi...i alwaes hav to keep up my spirit so tat i do nt make my frend worry abt mi...bt wat abt them??do they realli tink tat i will nvr flare up?then let mii tell all of u...u r wrong...if i ever flare up 1 dae...i can tell u it is even worse then beeyong or muen...the two of them once angry u all already cannot take it...so tink abt it!...yest i nearly flare up bt i didn...n they already sae i look bad...wif a black face...do they ever know how much tears i hav drop when they made mii feel bad or unhappi?no...i am alwaes the cheerful 1 where none of u scared...alwaes tink i will nt get angry easily...bt no i am the 1 hu gets angry veri easily...tis few wks i thot tat i alreadi hav gotten sum besties at last...bt look wat happen...they dun care much abt mii...they oni care abt princess(tats wat i gonna call her in my bloggie)...she is the biggest n best among u all...when she angry u all will go ard her n try to make her hapi...bt wat abt mi??u all will oni tink...aiya she angry recover veri fast de lar...
everything i did 4 u all n tis is wat i get??y did i ignore my sect sumtimes jus to go out wif u all??can u all at least make mii feel tat it is worth it goin out wif u all n nt my sect?
then nw...when i ask u all accompany mi can??all of u will jus sae dun wan lar...or bring out sum stupid excuse...bt when the other gals ask all of u will sae ok...jus becuz u all scared she angry?
am i nt human?am i nt a gal?cant all of u jus care 4 mii?tink abt my feelings?or giv mi sum better excuse?then nw u all go out ask her nvr ask mii...do u tink i am realli happi?i realli wanna shout these out in front of all of u...bt no i will nt...tats y none of u will noe my link...except my cousins n sect members...anitime aniwhere u nid sum1 comfortin try to tink of him...bt i tink of him then he tinkin of hu?it break my heart whenever i heard tat he n her sms each other till late...bt most of the time i sms him he nvr reply...all i wan is a reply is it tat difficult??haiz...too bad i am the unlucky 1...nvr ever success in study nor cca...a sl is nth big...compare to a head or committee member...bt mayb sumtimes to tink of it there is still sum1 hu i tink truely care abt mi...tats xiang xiang aka dad aka luqman...he is the 1 hu taught mi nt to cry easily n mus put on a strong front especially in front of friends n juniors...i mus nt let them noe tat i am sum1 hu can b easily bullied...he is my best daddy n sl n senior...i will always rmb him ...aft watchin bump off lover...i tink tat the character is rite...when sum1 wana go jump bt cant tink of ani1 to ask to rmb her...is the saddest 1...cuz no1 truely care for her so she cant tink of ani1 ...if i were her,nw to tink of it...theres realli no1 i can tink of to ask him or her to rmb mi...i oni can sae i am pathetic...damm pathetic...so to those hu read tis post do u still tink u wana cont readin my posts??cuz theres nth bt sad things here...
<*the cold cold one out there>
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